I’m coming out

Hello my freaky darlings, I have something I’ve been wanting to share for a while now...
I am polyamorous/non monogamous.
What does that mean exactly? It means that I have multiple romantic partners/relationships.
Most of you are already aware that I am happily married, but until now I’ve kept much of my love life a secret... I’m not really sure why, fear of judgement I suppose?
I’ve gotten to the point now where I don’t want to keep it a secret, I want to be able to share my happiness and talk about all my partners, and they deserve to not feel like my dirty little secret.

So like I said many of you are already aware of my husband Jay, we have been together for 10 years this April and married for 6, we have been non monogamous for most of that time, I’d say we were perhaps about a year in to our relationship when we first started to talk about it.
We live together of course and we have a 4 year old daughter, he is my absolute best friend in the whole world.
Jay is also currently dating other people

Next up is Carl, we've known each other for ..8? ish years now, we met on okcupid initally but he ended up in a relationship - we remained friends and had always been quite flirty, after his relationship ended we found ourselves talking and flirting more, he was one of the few people who really understood the whole poly situation so it was really good to have someone to talk to about it.

He and Jay are also very good friends which is awesome! Carl came to stay with us for my birthday last year, this is when we became an offical couple. Carl also has another partner.

I have also recently started dating an incredible guy I met on tinder, literally matched within the first 5 mins and we hit it off instantly... so well in fact I almost immediately deleted the app! We went on our first date a little over a week later and have been on many since. He is a big part of why I'm coming out now, hes been so supportive about the whole thing but mostly I just want to be able to openly talk about how much joy he brings me and how happy I am right now. This is his first experience with non-monogamy. He isn’t comfortable with me sharing his name or picture so I’m gonna show you these beautiful flowers that he bought me. 

I would also like to add that this isn’t in order of their importance to me, I love each of them fiercely, they all mean the absolute world to me. 

It is such a huge relief to no longer be carrying around this big secret and to be able to fully share my life. 

Valentine’s Day makeup look

Start with brows and a base

Draw a wing with red liquid liner/lipstick

Fill in the wing and draw some scattered hearts

Pat red eyeshadow over the wing and slightly over the hearts 

Pat on a red glitter 

Blend some red shadow along the lower lash line and apply mascara 

Finish off with lashes 

Blood sugar/extreme frost look

First pack the shade coma on to the lid with a flat synthetic brush 

Then using a small round brush pack the shade fresh meat in to the crease

With a clean small round brush pack the shade cherry soda just above  fresh meat 

Using small circular motions blend the harsh lines between those three shades 

With a flat liner brush pack coma on to the lower lash line 

Then with the same small round brush you used before blend out coma with cherry soda 

Use shade glucose under the brow bone then using your finger pat on extreme frost shade “lick my glit” (or a pink glitter pigment)

Finish off with liner and lashes, I used colourpop creme gel liner in call me and Tatti lashes TL38

Pictorial: blue blood

This is my first look created with the Jeffree Star blue blood palette, my husband bought me blue blood and blood sugar for Christmas 🥰 but I just want to remind people that you do not need expensive makeup to recreate my looks - use what you have! Find colours similar. I’d been creating looks for years with just drugstore makeup, have fun with what you have, don’t feel like you NEED the latest pallet to enjoy makeup.

Take the shade undertaker on a small round dense brush and pat it on just above the crease and round to the outer corner 

Using a clean small round dense brush pack on the shade flourishing over the top edge of undertaker 

Using very light circular motions blend the harsh line between the two shades 

Clean up the lid with a wipe/cotton pad 

Cut the crease with concealer or primer (I used the plouise base in rumour) but only go 2/3 of the way across the lid 

Using a flat synthetic brush pat the shade cullinan on the first 3rd of the lid 

I forgot to picture a step here but next take the shade entitled and pack it on the middle of the lid and blend the edges with cullinan, then pack ocean ice on the outer corner and blend with entitled. 

You can definitely skip this step but next I used the stargazer glitter liner  in white  and followed the edge of the cut crease. 

Pack undertaker along the lower lash line with a small flat brush  and blend out the edges with  flourishing on the same round brush you used earlier 

Finish off with liner and lashes, I used the colourpop cremegel liner in Zulu and Tatti lashes TL38, I also popped a little of the collection 2000 glam crystals in Le Freak on the inner part of my power lash line