*TRIGGER WARNING! Weight loss/ diet*

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This post will contain diet/weight loss talk, before and after pictures and ED mentions



Back in February this year my life was a little... up in the air I guess. Mum had been fighting cancer and had now just lost her leg! 
Husband and I decided (or rather I’d changed my mind) that we wanted another child but I convinced myself I needed to lose some weight first so I went to see my GP. 
Now, I was expecting a “sure we’ll refer you to Physiotherapy to increase your activity levels” at best  or “okay eat less move more here’s a leaflet about diabetes” at worst. 
I’ve not exactly had the most helpful doctors in the past... but my current GP is great! She had never once mentioned my weight herself. I told her I needed some help to lose weight, that I’d tried so many different things for over a decade but nothing had worked. She said to me “of course you haven’t managed it alone, with being too disabled to exercise enough, having PCOS and medications that cause weight gain you are fighting a losing battle!” 
SHE UNDERSTOOD! A HEALTH PROFESSIONAL UNDERSTANDING THAT ITS JUST NOT THAT EASY!!

So, she prescribed me orlistat; orlistat is a medication that prevents your body from absorbing fat from the food that you eat. 

She explained to me that this is not just a magic pill, I still had to make some changes to my diet. She straight up said “if you eat too much fat on these you’ll shit yourself without warning, just like walking down the street and you’ll shit yourself” YIKESSS 

So I went home and did some research and joined a couple of FB groups for people who take this pill to figure out what I needed to change. Everyone said the best thing to do was stick to 15g or less of fat per meal - 3 meals a day. So I looked at my weekly meal plan and the things I ate on a regular basis to see what I needed to change... as it turned out I didn’t actually have to make any huge changes, just a few little tweaks here and there, things like switching to skimmed milk and low fat butter, baking things instead of frying them. Easy changes. 

I think the reason I’ve been able to stick on this “diet” all year is that it hasn’t felt like a diet at all, I still eat all the things I used to, I don’t feel restricted or always hungry, heck I eat chocolate most days! 

I did worry going in to this that having to calorie count and keep tract of fat and have constant weigh ins at the doctor was going to be hella triggering for me... I did have a couple of little blips I won’t lie - but for the most part I’ve been okay with it. 

So far I have lost 3 stone 6.6 (or 48.6lbs) 
I’m not dieting this week because Christmas but I’m actually looking forward to getting back on it Jan 1st. 






Christmas makeup pictorial 2



Pack a bright red shadow just above the crease

Blend towards the brow
Cut the crease with white concealer


Pack a bright green shadow on to the lid leaving a line of concealer between the green and red shadow, use a small liner brush with the same concealer to go back in and clean up the line if needed.
Add a large wing with white liner
Using red liquid lipstick add red candy stripes to the white liner - you can use the white liner to try and tidy up any messy lines.
Add stipes with gold glitter liner next to the red.
Next do a smaller wing in black liner
Smudge some black shadow on the outer corner of the lower lashline then smoke out the red.

Finish off with lashes, Green eyeliner on the waterline and highlight the brow bone and inner corner.










Christmas makeup look

As always start with base and brows 

















Blend a light green shade from crease to brow 
intensify with darker green
cut the crease



Add black winged liner


Then gold glitter liner 
Blend red shadow along the lower lash line
finish off with liner and lashes






OOTD: general election

I have some feelings you guys...
I’m worried about my future mostly, and the future of other vulnerable and minority people in the uk.
I was feeling so optimistic Thursday, I guess like most people I’ve creased an echo chamber on social media, most of my friends and people I follow share the same views and opinions as myself so I really expected a different outcome.

Oh well, if nothing else this outfit got me 1.4k likes and around 60 new Instagram followers 😂
Gotta look on the bright side, right?


T-shirt: Amazon 

I’m coming out