OOTD: tired.

Hello my freaky darling!

So I haven't done a lot of blogging the past couple of months, I've really been stuggling.
I threw my back out at the beginning of august and since then I have been battling one of the most intense fibro flares I've ever had, on top of that I'm now on day 15 of a cold/chest infection that doesn't seem to be improving. I am TIRED! I am tired like you wouldn't even believe. I'm sleeping 15 hours a day waking up exhauted and going back to bed a few hours later tired.
This is the part of being chronically ill that is the hardest, the fatigue; pain I can cope with to an extent and when I can no longer cope I can take pain killers or have a hot bath or use a heating pad, there are things I can do about the pain, fatigue is different, there is no fix for it and no amount of sleep makes it go away. I'm starting to get frustrated with myself for not just shaking it off and getting on with it even though I KNOW thats not how it works.

I missed out on so much of the summer because of this illness, I went to london for 10 days to have a bit of a holiday but ended up spending all but 1 day in doors because I was just too exhausted to function. I had to cancel a friend coming to stay with me for my birthday because I was just too ill.
I feel like a rubbish mother because I can't do as much with my child as I would like to, I feel like a rubbish wife because being so exhausted makes me snippy and short tempered and I take it out on Jay (not that I mean to) and I feel like a rubbish friend because I have to cancel plans at the last moment and I miss peoples messages because I'm too tired to respond and then I forget to at all.

I'm tired.

Top: Killstar XXL

Shorts: Primark

Is it Halloween yet? Pictorial

Start off with brows and a base

Draw a line just above your crease with black shadow

Smoke it up towards the brow

Pack a purple shadow above the black

Blend the purple out using a pink shade

Cut the crease with concealer

Add a wing with liquid liner

Blend that towards the lash line with black shadow

Add some pink to help blend in to the next shade

Pack orange shadow over the whole lid

Using glitter glue or fixing liquid pat orange glitter over the lid

Pack purple shadow on the lower lash line

Blend out with the pink

Smoke out some black on the lash line

Finish off with lashes and liner

OOTD: witch bitch autumn

Hello my freaky darlings! It has been far too long.

I think this is my first post in like.. 7 weeks?
I’ve been really struggling during this time not gonna lie to you, I’ve been stuck in the worst flare I’ve had in years and of course it would come right at the start of the summer holidays so I have a big old dose of mum guilt right along with it. The fatigue I have been experiencing is on a whole other level, just complete and utter exhaustion. You know those first few moments upon waking? When your still super tired and everything is a little fuzzy and you’re a bit out of it? When if you were to close your eyes again you’d be back asleep instantly? That’s how I’ve felt CONSTANTLY for weeks now and I just can’t shake it. I also appear to be getting muggle sick, so that’s fun.

Anyway, by some miracle I managed to drag my ass out of bed today and get dressed, play with makeup and take pictures! Yippee! Hopefully I’ll have enough spoons to write up a makeup tutorial today too but for now here’s what I’m wearing today.

The skirt is a knockoff of this one by restyle that I got on wish

Flower crown: Claire's

Bollero: Killstar  XXL

Top: Primark

Tights: Primark

Boots: Killstar