OOTD: Autumn witch

Hello my freaky darlings! it's been a while!

I know I explained in my last post that I've really been struggling lately and the fatigue still has just not let up and I haven't been able to post as much as I'd like to, so I think it's about time for a wee life update.

So since I last posted I have gotten a new tattoo:

This was both the easiest and hardest tattoo I've ever had done 😂 the first like, 5 hours were absolutely fine, I was expecting it to be vile so I was quite surprised that it hurt way less than the back of my thighs, then half an hour right before the end was excruciating, the bits right under my boobs, I wanted to die! then it was fine again for the last half hour when she finished the middle.
THEEEEEEN I had an allergic reaction to the aftercare I was using (dermalize) so I was so uncomfortable for ages. I love it though! body image issues? slap a tattoo on it, problem solved 😆


Then I went to see A1 - a band I was OBSSESSED WITH as a child, I literally waited 20 years to see them. There was a slight problem though, the Shane Dawson x Jeffree Star collection was releasing ONE HOUR before I had to be at the venue! so I'm sitting on the london underground without wifi worrying that I won't be above ground in time for the launch, got to St Pancras with about half an hour to go though so decided to sit in starbucks and wait there. Bang on 5pm both Jay and I are refreshing beautybay and morphe desperately trying to get our hands on the whole collection but just like almost everyone else we couldn't get on the websites, everything had completely crashed! I was stressed lol. Time was getting on, it was around 5:30 and I was getting close to giving up - we needed to eat and get to the venue then suddenly beautybay started to load! it took me another 15 mins but I managed to snag the whole collection! I was over the moon, at 45 mins after launch I thought all hope was lost. unfortunately they did have to refund the gloss because they had over sold that item but I got the rest and I'll be posting a look with it soon. ANYWAY - 15 mins to go and we needed to get to the venue - we grabbed a quick sandwich and hopped in a taxi, luckily the venue wasn't too far away.

The gig was incredible and I had the most wonderful time, then after it finished we hung around by the stage door for a bit and I was lucky enough to meet 3 out of the 4 members! BEST. DAY. EVER!

     

And so on to today - I'm up and dressed because my mum is moving! She's been super lucky, she's been given a new build fully wheelchair accessable bungalow which is amazing, she's currently in a house with the only bathroom being upstairs and since her leg amputation back in febuary she's been almost completely bedbound. I'm so excited for her to have some indipendance back.

ANYWAY, here is my outfit of the day

Hat: killstar

Dress: Boohoo (sold out)

Top: Ebay (sold out)

Belt: Boohoo 

Leggings: Boohoo (sold out)

Boots: Killstar

OOTD: tired.

Hello my freaky darling!

So I haven't done a lot of blogging the past couple of months, I've really been stuggling.
I threw my back out at the beginning of august and since then I have been battling one of the most intense fibro flares I've ever had, on top of that I'm now on day 15 of a cold/chest infection that doesn't seem to be improving. I am TIRED! I am tired like you wouldn't even believe. I'm sleeping 15 hours a day waking up exhauted and going back to bed a few hours later tired.
This is the part of being chronically ill that is the hardest, the fatigue; pain I can cope with to an extent and when I can no longer cope I can take pain killers or have a hot bath or use a heating pad, there are things I can do about the pain, fatigue is different, there is no fix for it and no amount of sleep makes it go away. I'm starting to get frustrated with myself for not just shaking it off and getting on with it even though I KNOW thats not how it works.

I missed out on so much of the summer because of this illness, I went to london for 10 days to have a bit of a holiday but ended up spending all but 1 day in doors because I was just too exhausted to function. I had to cancel a friend coming to stay with me for my birthday because I was just too ill.
I feel like a rubbish mother because I can't do as much with my child as I would like to, I feel like a rubbish wife because being so exhausted makes me snippy and short tempered and I take it out on Jay (not that I mean to) and I feel like a rubbish friend because I have to cancel plans at the last moment and I miss peoples messages because I'm too tired to respond and then I forget to at all.

I'm tired.

Top: Killstar XXL

Shorts: Primark

Is it Halloween yet? Pictorial

Start off with brows and a base

Draw a line just above your crease with black shadow

Smoke it up towards the brow

Pack a purple shadow above the black

Blend the purple out using a pink shade

Cut the crease with concealer

Add a wing with liquid liner

Blend that towards the lash line with black shadow

Add some pink to help blend in to the next shade

Pack orange shadow over the whole lid

Using glitter glue or fixing liquid pat orange glitter over the lid

Pack purple shadow on the lower lash line

Blend out with the pink

Smoke out some black on the lash line

Finish off with lashes and liner

OOTD: witch bitch autumn

Hello my freaky darlings! It has been far too long.

I think this is my first post in like.. 7 weeks?
I’ve been really struggling during this time not gonna lie to you, I’ve been stuck in the worst flare I’ve had in years and of course it would come right at the start of the summer holidays so I have a big old dose of mum guilt right along with it. The fatigue I have been experiencing is on a whole other level, just complete and utter exhaustion. You know those first few moments upon waking? When your still super tired and everything is a little fuzzy and you’re a bit out of it? When if you were to close your eyes again you’d be back asleep instantly? That’s how I’ve felt CONSTANTLY for weeks now and I just can’t shake it. I also appear to be getting muggle sick, so that’s fun.

Anyway, by some miracle I managed to drag my ass out of bed today and get dressed, play with makeup and take pictures! Yippee! Hopefully I’ll have enough spoons to write up a makeup tutorial today too but for now here’s what I’m wearing today.

The skirt is a knockoff of this one by restyle that I got on wish

Flower crown: Claire's

Bollero: Killstar  XXL

Top: Primark

Tights: Primark

Boots: Killstar

OOTD: camo

Hello my freaky darlings!

Today my offspring “graduated” from nursery, they had a cute little ceremony with caps and gowns it was soooo sweet, my entire family came (7 of us in total) then after a few of us went out to lunch to celebrate.
I’m looking really forward to this summer, lots of fun things planned.

Hat: eBay

Dress: eBay size xl 

Trainer: eBay

Rainbow eye look

Hello my freaky darlings!
This is the look I wore for my daughters birthday party, I sat down at my dressing table with a plan to do a purple and blue look, then I added green to the inner corner and before I knew it I had gone full rainbow. I used the Morphe 35b colour burst artistry pallet to create this look.

After applying your brows and base, pack the shade “azure” on to the lid.

Next blend the shade “purplish” on the outer corner and in to the crease.

Then blend the shade “bikini” in the crease and towards the brow bone.

Apply "moss boss" to the inner corners

blend "sunshine" on the inner 3rd of the lower lashline

Next apply "puffs" to the centre of the lower lashline and "chicory" to the outer corner

Finish off with liner and lashes.
I used the Nyx epic ink liner, Urban Decay 24/7 glide on pencil in perversion and the Doll Beauty Arianna lashes

OOTD: ffdp

Hello my freaky darlings!

My memory card turned up, hooray!!
Thank god because my kid has been sick and keeping me up all night so I haven’t got anything new to post 😅
I would link the wig below but honestly its trash.

Hat: eBay

T-shirt: EMP (sold out) similar 2xl

Jacket: Camden Market - Similar

Shorts: New Look (sold out) - Similar

Tights: eBay xl

OOTD: Barbie, but make it kinky.

Hello my freaky darlings!
I seem to be wearing a lot more colour recently 🤔 I was staring in to my wardrobe today deciding what to wear when I spotted this bright barbie pink PVC skirt that STILL HAD THE TAGS ON! I definitely bought this before I moved, maybe 2ish years ago?! It was about bloody time I put it on really. I kinda love it.

Top: eBay 2xl

Bra: Ann summers XX large 

Skirt: Sold out - similar

Heels: eBay

Yellow and black pictorial

Hello my freaky darlings!
I’m tired as heck today, my kid has come down really sick, typical when she’s supposed to be going on a school trip to the zoo tomorrow 😔 we’re just keeping everything crossed that it’s not chicken pox since it’s been going around her class (and we don’t vaccinate against it in the uk 😒) this also means out that I’ll probably loose out on getting work done tomorrow, Friday afternoons is usually when I get to take outfit or makeup pictures for here and Instagram.
Luckily I have some backup content to share, like this makeup look that I wore on Tuesday.

Start with brows and a base, I did something different for my brows and got lots of compliments so I might continue to do them like this 🤔
I used Jeffree Star velour liquid lipstick in blue velvet for my brows and Makeup revolution conceal and define concealer in C0.5 for the base.

Pack a mustard yellow shade above the crease and round to the lower lash line in a “C” shape.
I used the shade “access” from the Morphe x Jaclyn Hill Armed and Gorgeous pallet

Smoke out the edges of the yellow, you want it really blown out.
Then pack a black shadow on the outer corner, I used the shade “pebble” from the Morphe 35b pallet.

Cut the crease with concealer

Pack black shadow on to the lid and wing it out, blended it round to the lower lash line and smoke it out

Pack the yellow shade next to the black on the lid and blend the two together then add liquid liner along the lash line, I used the Nyx epic ink liner.














                                                                 

 Finish off with liner and lashes, I used urban decays 24/7 glide on pencil in perversion and tatti lashes TL 23 

Hello my freaky darlings!
So... I did a thing 😅 I got a VCH piercing today (vertical clit hood for those who don’t know) i’ve Wanted one forever but I’m such a wimp with needles but I did a lot of research about it and everyone said it was virtually painless to get and healed quick... I’ll tell you now those people who said it didn’t hurt LIED! It really bloody hurt but really only for a few seconds and it was a little sore for about an hour and bled like crazy but it’s been about 6 hours now and feels fine, I’m super happy with it!
Anyway on a complete unrelated note can we talk about this dress?!! I’m wearing nothing but this all summer I swear, sorry no more outfit posts from me i’m gonna live in it! It is the softest most light weight stretchy fabric I have ever felt and the cut is soooo flattering! No shapewear! I can even get away with going braless! Best. Dress. Ever! 100% recommend.

Dress: killstar 2xl

Hat: killstar